Twentieth Entry

Twentieth Entry: 11/29/09 2:21:39 PM
What do I regret? First of all what is regret? Is it self-reflection? Is it getting caught up in the past? Is it a necessity or a commodity? I do have the burden of regret. Whether it be the tone I used, or the words that spilled out of my mouth. Or it could it be the time where I failed to act? That rare occurrence of not acting when I knew that a girl I liked also liked me. Some reasonably small event like that is a regret. If I had gone back in time, things would have been different. But where would I be today? What could be different? I can only guess. Regret is wishing you could go back in time to change your actions. I am learning to make regret less of a burden. Yes, I do regret that time where my confidence faltered, but I learned from it. When I let my mouth run too long, there were consequences. However, I have learned when and where is the right time to protest and when and where it is right to shut up and take it. What is regret? It is guilt that hopefully drives us to better our selves as human beings. Or hopefully it does. A little regret is fine, as long as it does not consume one’s lifestyle.

Nineteenth Entry

Nineteenth Entry: 11/27/09 9:58:57 PM
The difference in us all is.... Well what does the difference in us all mean? I have no answer to this question now, but hopefully when I’m done with this I will. Well to start, the difference in us all is essential to life. If there was even one more Sam Rouleau running around, I would go insane. The difference between us is why I hate him, but like her. The difference between us is why he is funny, and she is not. The difference between us is why we get along, and why we do not. The difference between us gives us laughter and gives us tears. The difference between us drives us apart and brings us together. The difference between us will cause us to be the best of friends or the worst of enemies. The difference is what keeps us interested in each other. The difference between us will and has caused massive conflict. The difference in us all shapes our journey in this lifetime.

Eighteenth Entry

Eighteenth Entry: 11/25/09 7:24:05 PM
Death? What is Death? What is not? What can it be? What can it not be? Death can slowly pass over us like a warm quilt on a breezy night, or struck us like an unexpected punch to the stomach. It can come expected as a long planned appointment, or make a surprise visit like a long gone college roommate. The thing that is constant about Death is that it’s always inevitably. The way, the how, the who, the where is the variable. With Death being inevitable is what makes us mortal, but for some that does not matter. After all we’ll end up in Heaven? Or will our body will slowly decompose into the ground? Our will we be reincarnated onto this Earth? Will we live on some other planet? What will happen? The best minds have taken guesses at this, and I wish not to guess at such a broken puzzle. However, no matter what is plugged in for the variables the equation will always produce the same answer. Death is coming, and what can we do?

Seventeenth Entry

Seventeenth Entry: 11/23/09 6:41:22 PM
I am who I am. You are who you are. Can I try to change you? Yes, I can. But most of the time I will fail. Can you try to change me? Yes, but it is most likely that you will fail. Then why am I writing this blog. We seem to be at a mutual point of consent to disagree. I will keep this writing up. Not because I must prove to you that I am right. In the big picture even if I do change some of your opinions that counts for a small percentage. The world will keep on going no matter what my blog has to say. People are unchangeable. I write because I choose to. I am Me, and You are You.

Sixteenth Entry

Sixteenth Entry: 11/23 Time Started Writing... (Oops I forgot)
Dedicated to voltaire.cannot.smile
Ah finally someone who argues with me.
First of all the response to my Dad being in the military. Yes he was. However, we share differing political views. I am not trying to pretend that I know War, I made no allusions to that. I know a countless number of Veterans. I was making remarks on the manner in which people disrespect the veterans. I also do not believe that I said anything about the U.S. needing to shove bullets down peoples throats.
Yes, Countries get a long well with out war. I agree with this. In the latest post I never said that War is the only solution. I made a point to say that we should avoid War. That would be an ideal world; however, we do not live in one.

To be honest, I was taken aback when you compared The Revolutionary War to the conflict in the Middle East. In the Revolution we fought for Independence from a tyrant. Yes we were viewed as terrorists in England's eyes. Why wouldn't we be? We were causing a great disturbance for them.

Let's go back to the Persian Gulf War. Kuwait was invaded by Sadam. We went in and drove them out. (I wish we went farther.) 9/11, we were attacked by terrorists. We retaliated, as expected. The terrorists are fighting for their form of independence. However, there independence is morally wrong. Now of course I would think this, being an American. I do think that I have some bias here, but this where the difference lies. During the Revolution most Americans were for independence. The difference is that in the countries that these terrorists are from they do not agree with the terrorists. The Revolution was not based off religious extremity, while that is the terrorists main belief.
Please Write Back,
Sam

Fifteenth Entry

Fifteenth Entry: 11/22/09 6:37:03
I sat in the passenger seat of my Dad’s Ford F150. The windows were down, the cool air breezing through my hair. The radio emitting classic rock, it was a fine time. The yellow light turned to; as a result, the subtle squeak of the brakes stopped us. In general passing my eyes looked to the right, as I saw the car in the lane over speed off. The one thing that I noticed most about this car was the bumper sticker. "War is not the answer."

I had seen some other bumper stickers like that before, but I reached my breaking point with this one. What does this woman know about War? People like that driver caused the living hell for Veterans freshly back from Vietnam. It’s people like her who don’t care about young men and women who are laying down their lives everyday. If people like the driver were in charge of our country, than we would still be English citizens. If War is not the answer, than Hitler’s successors would still be committing genocide all over the world. If War is not the answer, than our country would be in ruin. I despise people who say just pull everyone out of the Middle East. Oh yeah, great plan Mr. Senator. We’ve just pissed off every terrorist there could possibly be in the Middle East. I guess we can just take all of our soldiers out and watch the missiles come. A bunch of terrorists running around in the Middle East uncontrolled is beneficial for nobody. I am not saying we must wage War everywhere, but there are instances when we must. War can be an answer. War can be a solution. War will and has protected us. That lady sitting comfortably in her car could not have done that with out the soldiers who lay down their lives. Freedom is never Free.
(Note 11/24/09: I do not pretend to be a true scholar. I just write what I think is write, as I am sure many people can disagree, as I am sure there are people more versed in history who could disown me.)

Fourteenth Entry

Fourteenth Entry: 11/15/09 8:12:29 PM
What to talk about? A writer, such as my self, has the world at my fingertips. In my last two entries I’ve given insight on some hot topics; as a result, I think it would be appropriate to write something about me. I was talking about what I would enjoy to do for a profession when I grow up. I answered that my profession of choice would to be a military doctor. And the person who I was caring on this conversation asked me if I was afraid to die. I am one of the fortunate people who are not afraid of death. It’s not because I think I am some macho man; ergo, it will be impossible for me to die. It’s not because I think God loves me, and he will spare me. I simply believe that whatever happens is meant to happen. Here in lies another slew of questions that I will attempt to answer without anybody asking them. I am not a Calvinist who believes in predetermination, or predestination. Do I think that I have a destiny? Yes. Do I know what it is? No, i wish i did. If I die tomorrow, I believe that God has a reason for it. If I get paralyzed in a car crash, there is a reason for it. There is a reason why you are reading my blog, if not for pure enjoyment. No matter what things happen for a reason. I have done some research on The Chaos Theory. This theory pretty much says that everything just randomly happens, there is no reason for anything. I find this hard to believe. We all have lessons to learn, and I believe we meet certain people for certain reasons, or certain things happen so we can improve our character. I do not agree with this theory. Because I believe in destiny, I am going to assume that somebody is going to ask me do you believe that you can change your destiny. Well if I am not sure of my destiny, how can I change it? I am going to end with a line from the movie The Last Samurai, which is an amazing movie that I highly recommend. “I believe a man does what he can, until his destiny is revealed to him.” And that is what I believe in the simplest words.

Thirteenth Entry

Thirteenth Entry: 11/13/09 8:49:52PM
Tonight I plan to talk about two hot topics that have been discussed frequently in the last couple of months: the economy and the health care plan. I have some insights on both.

As we all know, the economy took a serious hit a couple of months ago. Many people lost money, jobs, and even some lost their families. People also lost homes. This crisis hurt all the people of America, especially the middle class. Also, a lot of companies went, or they were close to being bankrupt. The government decided to bail out certain companies. I don’t agree with this at all. If the company was bankrupt before, what will be different in the future? If the companies are used to getting money when they need it, they will never learn how to adapt and become more self-sufficient. It would have been more appropriate to have given those billions of dollars to help support who need it. To create jobs, or to help bail out the people who need it, not the companies who are interested in their self-preservation. The people of America could have profited much more than the companies. And as far as the stimulus package goes, has anybody actually received their stimulus package? The way to improve economy is not to give away billions of dollars to companies, or make shallow promises that are never fulfilled.

Recently, a new health care bill just passed through the House and is now on its way to the Senate. The politicians have been coming up with elaborate plans to help fix the health care. Personally, I don’t think that there is so much wrong with it that there is a necessity for a new bill. I have two suggestions for those politicians. The first one is lowering the price of medication. It costs about two dollars to make a pill, but for 30 days my Dad has to pay around 300 dollars. I don’t understand how they think it is fair to mark up the pills by eight dollars. And the medication he takes is not some new scientific venture, it’s something that has existed for a long time. Especially for senior citizens, if the government mandated that self-fish insurance companies lower the price for medications it would help them save money. In turn, they would invest it into the stock market, which would only increase the economy. The insurance companies have no right to cause inflation for literally no reason other than self-centered gains. The last thing that must be done to improve health care is to educate the public on natural remedies. I am not one of those health freaks who advocates for going vegetarian or macrobiotic. However, I eat healthy and I do see a naturopathic doctor. Most of the time when the general population has a general cold they take antibiotics, or when they have a headache they always take Tylenol. Antibiotics destroy all the cells in the effected area, not just the bad ones. In return it takes a while for the immune system to catch up. It is more beneficial for the body to try more natural remedies that do not have such a costly effect on the body. Also, these natural remedies save money, which in turn would be invested into the market; thus, helping the economy. Anybody seeing a pattern here?
Our country is going through some rough times, but there is no reason why we cannot fix our problems.

Twelfth Entry

Twelfth Entry: 11/11/09 8:28:17PM
Dedicated to Sam Worley, because he gave me the idea for this entry.
Before I get into my main topic, today is Veteran’s Day. My Dad was in the Marine Corps during the Vietnam War. I know many other veterans. If you know a veteran, take the 10 seconds out of your day and shake their hand, while looking them square in the eyes, and give them a sincere thank you. They have witnessed unaccountable horrors, and America would not be who she is without them. Thank You Veterans.

Now into the main point. Sam Worley asked me to write on what I think about racial profiling. This is what I think about racial profiling--Racial profiling is NOT alright. It is not okay to call someone a terrorist, if they are from the Middle East. That is what I think, and I think that my views on racial profiling are quite straightforward, so there is no need to elaborate. However, now we get into the gray area. The following is a hypothetical statement. Let’s say that you’re occupation turns out to be airport security. You control the camera’s and search for possible suspects by the gates in the airport. You see a man who seems to be of Middle East descent, and he is wearing a turban. This man his fidgeting with his baggage, and he is constantly looking around, possibly in a frightful manner. When you zoom in the camera on him, you see that he has perspiring heavily. Sweat is dripping down the point of his nose, and his shirt has darkening circles under his armpits. You even employ a thermal camera, which shows that his face is very heated. This is a sign he is under stressed. Hypothetically, you exercise your right, as a government worker, and have this man and his baggage searched. Whether there was contraband in his bag is not the point. I would like to ask you, my faithful readers, Is this or is this not racial profiling?

Eleventh Entry

Eleventh Entry: 11/9/09 8:24:44 PM
In the previous entry I attempted to be creative and soulful. It is quite obvious that I need improvement in this area, so I will try another poem.

Memories
When I look back
I remember nothing,
When I look back a second time,
I remember pain.

It’s pain what it makes us.
It’s pain that keeps us human.
It’s pain that keeps me going.
It’s pain that make those good moments great.

It’s getting rejected
That makes it great to slow dance with that girl.
It’s pain that causes grief.
It’s pain which fulfills my memories.

It’s fighting with a best friend,
Or being told to go away.

It’s pain which brought us into the world.
It’s pain that will take most of us out.
It is pain that defines me.

Tenth Entry

Tenth Entry: 11/3/09 9:29:38
The Story of Chesca
You saw him,
He saw you,
There was nothing else left to do.

Like two sheepish children
You looked at each other and turned away.
Eyes locking,
You feel like you’ve been with each other before.
But quickly turning away to go to your friends.

You stare at him,
He looks at you and smiles.
This makes your day.
It’s too late to turn back now.
You love him and that’s that.

He asked you to the homecoming dance,
You were the happiest girl ever,
Jumping and dancing
You picked out a beautiful dress.

Eyes locking,
Your brown against his blue,
You put your arms around his neck and hold him close,
Time stopped,
This is your paradise.

Time goes on,
Your days revolve around each other,
Glimpsing each other in the hallway,
Lips slowly locking.

Oh Chesca, you gave him everything.
He made you happy.
You gave him your world.
What did he give in return?

He lost interest with you,
You, the one who devoted your life to him,
For you it was love, For him it was a teenage phase.
You saw him kissing another girl.

Like anyone would do,
You cried and cried,
Coming to me I tried to console you.
No use.
He had broken you.

Ninth Entry

Ninth Entry: 11/1/09 7:29:30PM
Ok, well I just typed about 200 words, and let’s be honest here. I really didn’t like what I had to say that time. I was trying to go on about how it’s good to be random and structured, but honestly; it sounded stupid. And me boring you is the last thing that I want to accomplish. By the way, I would like to thank you all for reading my blog and commenting on it. This just started out as a short term thing, but as of now; I am going to continue writing. One thing that did get me thinking today was the movies V for Vendetta. Granted, I was supposed to be taking history notes while I watched the movies, but it was worth procrastinating. First of all, If you have not seen that movie, then please watch it. It is amazing, and it gave me something to think about. I don’t want to ruin the movie, but it’s about the government controlling the people through fear. This really jump started my brain into a hurricane of thoughts. They’re all jumbled into my head, so I’ll do my best to get the basic ideas sorted out. As more and more laws are made on a state and federal level, I get worried for our future. Before I continue, I would like to clarify that I am not a Democrat or Republican. I am simply speaking from what I think is right. I am beginning to get more worried for our future. If we keep bending to laws and policies, then eventually we all be little mice trapped in a box. Even though Socrates and Plato are very old dudes, they really knew what they were talking about. If you just do everything that you are told to do with out justifying it, than you lose all humanity. God gave us freewill, even if you do not believe in God you believe that everyone has freewill. Laws are necessary to run a nation, but some things are ridiculous. One example I would like to touch upon is abortion. For me the solution is easy. If you think it’s wrong, then don’t do it. If you think it’s legal, then it’s your right to have an abortion. A lot of things that are “huge” debates are much more complicated than they need to be. The character V in the movie was right. It’s pointless to live, if we lived in an over controlled environment. I know that I’ve jumped around a lot, but thanks for bearing with me.
(note: I am taking suggestions from y’all on what you would like me to write about.)